In Repair

So over the past week a half, I have gone from abject self-hatred to being back to normal..for the most part. I'm not really sure how it happened so quickly but things have changed for me. Perspectives and priorities have changed. I'm not gonna say its a complete 180, because it takes a lot for people to change. But I will say that my mindset has changed and I'm in the process of changing. I've had these.... boundaries for the past year or so, due to things that have happened and changed how I think about things. These events have left scars and they've been healing but, very very slowly. But over the past week it's been like someone has finally given me some medicine and they're healing faster. They will always be there but, they won't be as bad and won't affect me as much. I'm slowly but surely pushing these boundaries and learning what was behind them. Some are going to be harder than others, but it's all for the best I think. I've got to change where these boundaries are at if I'm to move forward or grow at all. I know that this isn't going to be easy and will come with some pain, scratch that will come with a lot of pain. But that's what happens when you grow, things get pushed out of the way and you have growing pains. Some may ask why we need that. They're there to teach you, without them we would stop moving forward, and just like when a shark stops swimming it dies, we would proverbially die, in our personal and relational lives. If you haven't guessed by now, a friend has given me a lot to think about, and I thank them for that. Who better to help you move forward than someone you trust?
I look ahead over the horizon and I see some of the rocks ahead that will cause me to stumble. Can I go around them? Can I go over them? I'm not sure, I'm not close enough yet to see. But I know one thing I'd rather take a chance on getting stuck or hurt than taking the safe road. The safe road is good for awhile. But you learn less on it, with risk comes experience and growth.