In Repair

So, I sit here tonight not being able to sleep. Could be the Venti Espresso Chocolate Truffle I consumed. Could be my mind won't shut off. Over the past couple of months i've become ok with the idea of being single, maybe even happy you could say. Yet, i'm not. The girl that broke my heart last semester is single again, and we've been talking....a lot. But it stopped and I can't help but feel somethings wrong. She says we're ok but, deep down inside, i'm not really sure I believe her. One of my friends tells me to move on. The others agree that I should keep trying, I could go into what all happened but...I don't wanna take a thousand words. Suffice it to say, this girl has a hold on me. I don't know how it happened but it has. Maybe its how we communicate and that we have a lot in common and in her words, "We don't run out of things to talk about, we just run out of energy". Or it could be that it was the first time that I liked a girl and she liked me back; I don't know, and frankly, I'm not sure if I care. I do know that I want to play this out to the end. I think we could have something here, but I'm not sure. But does it really matter how I feel? I think not, what really matters is how she feels. She's happy, ok with being single. I am, to a degree, but changing something that is basically embedded in who you are....isn't easy, in fact it's impossible. So I guess for now, i'm gonna leave things the way they are. I'll keep being 2 people in one, a happy single guy, and a hopeless romantic.